Do you think ugly nice girls are pathetic?

l am an ugly girl :(. And whenever l am nice people just sigh or make "pfft" noises say "ughh" or just look at me in disgust. l knew if i was a pretty girl this would have not have happened. So screw it l went neutral, l dont smile anymore as much anymore, now that lm not as nice anymore strangely people seem to respect me a little more, how sad is that? it really sucks being an ugly girl count your blessings if you turned out average or pretty. So do you think us ugly girls who are kind are just pathetic and we are only nice to gain acceptance from people? that's what it seems like :/